stuck in my head
i have The Bens' "Bruised" stuck in my head right now, not too say that's a bad thing, cus its a good song, but i have been listening to Ben Folds all day. "I went because you said you'd be there/Box of candy/ Smoke in your hair"
Procrastonating, and bad spelling, and poor grammer
Im really should be working on an essay due thursday. Im lucky, i get to write a 1000 word essay on how Ben Folds is a progressive musician. It is for an english class, which really is a joke because my mom is an english teacher and i always got honours in English in school. This class should be a breeze...hopefully
peace
don
hmmm
life is funny you know, always changing. Sometimes its for the better other times its for the worst. I like the times when, i dunno, life just changes. I love having that feeling and sense of freshness and change, i find it exciting.
I feel a really strong urge to travel and to live abroad, i don't know what has spawned this feeling, its not a new one. It seems that if someone asked me to live else where in the world i would just drop everything and go, is this my calling?
On saturday i went with a couple friends to a bollywood movie. I had only ever seen one bollywood movie before, and this was on DVD. The movie was called "Salaam-e ishq" for those of you who dont speak Hindi (which i can assume is quite a few) it means "Love's Salute". Let me tell you... 4 1/2 hours long!!! WOW This thing was longer than Lord of the Rings. It was good though
Magic
I feel like i've been watching a magic trick, and i've just been fooled. You see, you are so focused on what you THINK is the coin in his hand, but in reality you've completly missed the slide of hand into the pocket. But, see, i'm not upset about this at all, actually im quite happy. There is something about magic tricks that make them so exciting. I guess that's why im so happy. hmmm. i like magic. Life is a great Magician
My Cat like watching the computer
silly cat computer screens are for nerds like me.
Tonight was good, i have this new piano student whom, well, is amazing. It takes about 10 min for me to recover after i have her. Let me explain. She is ten years old and just moved hear from South Korea, and has been playing for seven years. The thing that makes her so incredible is that she is in Grade 7 Royal Conservatory.
I didn't really believe it at first, but, well she sat down and played me two songs almost perfect.
wow
I plan on getting her through the exam and then sending her off to a teacher much better than myself
mmm mmm good
so i went out for supper and had chinese food, in reality it wasn't all that good as it was fast-food asian style. BUT i did eat the whole meal, rice and all with chop sticks, which is a first for me. And then as i was woking back (pun) to the school some guy from Hershey's Canada gave me a free Oh Henry bar. So tonight was pretty good so far. I'll need it... heading into a 2 1/2 hour geology class.
more on dating
i got thinking today on the drive into school about why don't i have a girlfriend. Don't get me wrong, im not complaining; im not even really looking, but i was thinking about why i haven't been approached by some girls.
First though i have to put it out there that i haven't had a girlfriend before, not because i couldn't have one, but because i haven't wanted one. Let me explain. When i was younger, like junior high, i thought ' i'll wait until i have my drivers license until i get a girlfriend'. The reason behind this was that i would hear the stories that kids would tell about how wierd it was having one of the parents drive the "couple" around.
When it rolled around that i was 16, i looked at my life and thought ' you know, i don't feel as though i am mature enough to handle a relationship, and that i couldn't offer enough of myself to a person' In hindsight, being 16 and thinking this way was a little wierd, but you know im glad i didn't get a girlfriend. There was a girl pursuing me at this time, but she was not the kind of girl that i saw myself with. I said, wait until you graduate, then you can look seriously at getting a girlfriend.
So once i graduated, i don't know, it just didn't feel right. But right now there is a lot of pressure to get into a relationship. I dunno, we'll see what happens. im a thorough persons
My thoughts on finding a girl....
Hmmm dating, what an interesting topic. If you read some of my previous posts you’ll probably understand why I am venturing towards this realm, walking the tight rope of cliché. Last year I put a satellite radio in my car, well its not really installed in my car, more like clinging to; in a manor that’s very parasitic… but I digress. So I have been listening primarily to music with this thing, but I thought to myself today “I am kind of sick of music right now, so what can I listen to that might be different?” I didn’t really want to listen to Howard Stern, reason being is because he is crass and just plain annoying. So I am flipping through the stations an I find the Catholic Network and I decided to listen to it. I grew up a Christian, but attended a catholic school. The people on the show had a guest in that wrote a book about dating. The guest made some very interesting points. She said, and here I thought I was the only one that thought this, that people should be complete and happy with themselves before they go off and want to find someone. This is because, and she explained, people tend to expect more of someone if they don’t feel fulfilled themselves. See to me this makes perfect sense. Watching movie’s where the main character, usually a man, says to a woman “You complete me”, or even better “You are the ying to my yang” or, “You are my better half”, usually made me question this concept of, why? Why are they your other half? Why do they complete you? It has always come off corny to me. To me, an attractive person is someone who has their life figured out and know who they are, it is not someone searching to fill some void in themselves, because I know I would not want to live up to that pressure, why would I want to put that onto someone else. I have a feeling I will write more on this, lots of thoughts all of a sudden, but people don’t like to read blogs that are 10 pages long at a time… I know I don’t.
no more song lyrics for now
i posted way too many song lyrics on here in too little a time. yuck.
man i have a 2 1/4 hour break between classes! yikes, it takes sooo long for that time to pass. Well i guess i'll just have to go read my books then.
Radiohead
hmm so sad, probably because its so true:
When you were here before
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel
Your skin makes me cry
You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
And I wish I was special
You're so f*ckin' special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't care if it hurts
I want to have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so f*ckin' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
She's running out the door
She's running out
She's run, run, run, running out
Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so f*ckin' special
I wish I was special
But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doing here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here
What a sad song, but its so catchy
i feel like, you know when you wake up from a dream and you don't know where you are or what's going on? . Oh Rascal Flatts tell us, "What Hurts the Most":
I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother meI can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
but i still soldier on.
-don
Happy New Year
i don't know how to do this entry without coming off creepy. So for your information i just need everyone to know im not as creepy as this entry may or may not sound. okay.
Recently i've become a victim of perfume. Man those perfume makers know what they are doing. Studies indicate that smell is the sense most strongly linked to memory, or so my psych. prof told us. I really do believe this because the other day i had some friends over to my house and we sat down to watch this bollywood movie called "Don" because... well... i think its obvious. But unfortunatly our DVD player in our living room is crap and wouldn't read the disk, so it was off to my room to watch the movie. Now I usually don't have people in my room, this is because i don't usually have people over, the reason is mainly due to a lack of "fun" at my house. But i digress. So we sit down to watch the movie and it starts, i think at this point i need to mention that my two friends happened to be girls, a group that rarely, if ever enters my room; and certanly not to watch movies. But anyway there we were laying on my bed watching this movie. I noticed that one of my friends was wearing her usually perfume. So after the movie i drove them home and that was that. I got into bed that night and her perfume was all over my blankets. Okay, so here is were i might come off creepy, rest assured im not...really...hmmm. The second i smelled it i thought of her, it was weird, kind of like an involentary reaction. But it did smell good. So that perfume was there until about yesterday or so, when it had finaly faded. But every night when i climbed into bed, i would smell it and think of her. Huh, i don't think that came off as creepy as i thought that it would.
Well , goodnight
peace
don
