Life, Love, and Everything In Between

HUGE SURPRISE

Have you ever been so sure of something there was no reason to ever question it? Now have you ever had that sureness shattered? Today something very unexpected happened. I mean i am still stunned, its one of those things that leaves you in a daze. Like when you found out that there was no santa... sorry to all those who still believe but it is true (that its not true that is) Anyway, i digress, here is what happened. So i am walking through the student lounge at school, its the second day so everything is still in the new unsure stage. All the faces are new voices strange, the smell in the air somewhat more grown up than the pungent smell of a highschool hallway. Everything is new, except for two things. I should be more specific. Two people are familiar, but you will have to wait to hear who they are. So as i am walking through the student lounge i look out the window, and off to the side of my line of sight i see this beautiful face, with this absolute smile that is full of what can only be descibed as beauty. In our philosophy class our prof said that we need to come up with a defenition of beauty... this is what is my definition. It is a smile and a face i have seen before, but a long time ago, a face that i thought was gone forever. In fact i was sure it was gone forever, i had convinced myself so. That was one of the elements of my uncertain life that i was certain about. A girl that was my first love, that all of a sudden one day was gone, she just disapeared. There was no warning just the mystery that she left behind. I remember thinking that she shone with light and wondering why no one else could illuminate a room like she did. All of a sudden she was gone. It took a long time to move on, and by a long time i mean a couple years for me to let her go... but never ever forget her. So hear i am walking through the lounge and there she is. I thought i was dreaming. She has hardly changed. I went over and we just started talking about the last couple years. I could have talked for years, but alas joy in this lifetime rarely lasts, and i had to go to class.

But here is my problem, in moving on from her i fell for another girl. Now when i said that there was only two faces at this school that were familiar here they are. The long lost love, and my the current flame within my heart. I am left to either choose between one which at this point seems impossible, or choose neither and suffer in silence. That is my predicament. If there is any advice out there please please tell me.
peace (because i don't have much)
don

posted by That Canadian Guy @ 9:31 p.m.